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06. September 1972 – About fanatic Arabs They are very violent. Very violent. You see, they firmly believe there’s life after the body’s death — the body’s death to them is in no way the end of life. They only believe in some sort of “heaven”, that’s all. Yes, murderers’ heaven! |
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06. September 1972 – Perpetual Discomfort Eating is becoming almost — almost impossible. Nor do I have the faintest idea of what will replace food (Mother sweeps her hand across her forehead): I don’t see anything. Everything is becoming… I can’t say a suffering, but a discomfort: a discomfort, there’s perpetual discomfort, as if my body were made to live through every single thing that must disappear. Nonstop. From time to time, for a few seconds there’s… (Mother opens eyes filled with wonder), but not even long enough to be able to define it. And it’s very rare. Whereas the other condition is almost constant. Everything — external things, internal things, things in so-called others, things concerning this body — all, all is terrible, terrible, terrible… That’s certainly how Buddha saw things, and why he said that life was a falsehood and had to disappear — but I know better! I KNOW it isn’t a falsehood. But it must change… must change… But in the meantime… Only when I am (gesture, hands open) absolutely silent within and everywhere… does it becomes tolerable. I feel a fantastic Power (Mother touches her fingertips), but… also sense a little person full of… (how can I put this?) containing all the things that must disappear. As if all the negations had accumulated here so that I do the work, and I don’t know who that “I” is anymore. The body, this poor body, is not happy — it isn’t unhappy either. It has a sensation of nonexistence. Everything it encounters, the entire organization of things, its entire life is the negation of what it sees as the… Beauty to be realized. |
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13. September 1972 – Message When you are conscious of the whole world at the same time, then you can become conscious of the Divine.” Quand vous devenez conscient du monde tout entier en même temps, alors vous étés capable d’être conscient du Divin. My idea is not that being conscious of the world automatically makes you conscious of the Divine, but when your consciousness is vast enough to see and be conscious of the whole world, then you become capable of… How can I say it?… I don’t want to be too specific. I mean I want each one to understand according to his capacity... A person with a superficial consciousness will understand in that way, but one with a deeper consciousness will understand the real meaning. …in order to be capable of becoming conscious of the Divine. That’s the idea. But I don’t want to put it in those terms, you see. I want each one to… …to understand in his own way, from his own particular level. Yes, because as the Work progresses, true consciousness develops — but I don’t want to say that. But it’s an incredible situation, you know: either true consciousness or the sensation of an impending and general danger. Everything — eating, taking a bath — is a danger, you see. The only thing that’s… (Mother opens her arms and hands in a gesture of contemplative abandon). Except resting, at least up to now — resting is nice: it’s relaxation in the Divine. Both are nice: resting and silence-immobility (in a position where my my body’s position doesn’t hurt too much), then I think I could stay like that for centuries. Just being employed in… (What should I say? No work is involved): just letting the Divine go through me, through this body. More and more, when someone is here, in silence, it’s… (gesture indicating the Force flowing through Mother) to reach the point where there’s nothing but the Divine. Those two things are very good. The most difficult thing of all is eating. There’s… no, neither disgust, nor dislike, nor anything of the kind (no sensations are involved): a physical impossibility. A real problem. Something to be found — but what? Me, I don’t sleep at all anymore, but it’s… it’s marvelous! The only marvelous moment (immobile gesture, arms and hands open in total surrender). It’s absolutely like bathing in the Lord, you know: like this (same gesture). There’s no active sensation, no… nothing. Nothing. Nothing but… a luminous peace. This is certainly what will eventually replace sleep. Sleep, the fall into unconsciousness we call sleep, will disappear and be replaced by (same gesture, arms open, smiling). For the body, it’s… we could say, bathing in the Lord. There’s not even a trace, not the faintest sensation of an individual person — utterly gone. It’s a STATE of consciousness. |
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20. September 1972 – Mother about Satprem‘s eye problem If you could stop everything for ten days… don’t use your eyes to read or write — not look at anything, just use your eyes to see what’s indispensable, to eat or move about. I don’t know, there’s a kind of automatic vision that isn’t tiring. It’s when you “look” at something that it tires you. I wish you had ten whole days of that automatic vision. You are now my eyes for the work, you understand, so you must keep them in good condition. Myself, I see everything… through a sort of veil. But I’ve gained a new perception for it. I don’t see in quite the same way; it’s as if I saw more inside, I don’t know how to explain it. That’s increasing. Growing. But it takes long, so long… You must rest until you are cured — completely cured. |
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30. September 1972 – New Vital and Mental Activity In my case, you see, it was a radical action: the mind and vital were simply gone. Therefore the body had to re-create little by little a new mental and vital activity. And it’s very interesting, because it happened only when it was needed. So naturally, it’s not perfect — speech mainly. That’s the most bothersome, for I have trouble expressing myself; but the rest, oh!… (pointing to the silent forehead, then arms outstretched and motionless, as if everything were suspended in the immutable Eternal). As soon as it’s like that, it becomes VAST, luminous, tranquil… |
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