23. Dezember 1950 (Kräfte und Energien)
In dem Maße, wie das Denken sich entwickelt, beginnt man seinen
Kräfteverbrauch zu messen und zu berechnen;
im allgemeinen bringt das allerdings nichts ein, und sofern ihr nicht das Verfahren kennt, Kraft zu schöpfen,
gebt ihr die empfangenen Energien besser frei aus, als dass ihr sie in euch stagnieren lasst.
14. Dezember 1963 (Kräfte)
Das Kaleidoskop: alle kleinen Teile fügen sich ineinander und ergeben ein
Ornament - auf sehr ähnliche Weise organisieren sich und spielen die Kräfte.
Jene, die gerne geben (die großzügigen aber auch dominierenden Naturen),
sind sich der Bewegung mehr beim Austritt aus ihrer Individualität bewusst -
die Kraft fließt.
2. März 1967 (Bescheidenheit und Energie)
Bescheidenheit und Energie: es erfordert eine unerschütterliche Energie -
eine konstante Energie - und gleichzeitig eine totale Bescheidenheit, die
bereit ist, alles aufzugeben, denn alles, was existiert, ist nichts im
Vergleich zu dem, was sein soll.
11. July 1970 – Rising of the Kundalini
This “rising of the kundalini,” I had it in… I was still in Paris. It was before I came to India. I had read Vivekananda’s books about it…. And when the Force rose, it emerged from the head through here (gesture at the top of the head); the [classic] experience was never described in that way. The Force came out and the consciousness settled here (gesture about eight inches above the head). So when I came here, I told Sri Aurobindo about it; he told me it had been the same thing with him, and that according to the teaching of [ancient] texts, you “cannot” live when that takes place: you die! So… (laughing) he told me, “Here are two who haven’t died!”
The consciousness has remained there (gesture above), it didn’t come down again; it’s there, its always there.
Here, slightly above the head (same gesture about eight inches), like this.
Whenever I try to know something, it’s always the same: everything stops and I listen there (gesture above), that’s where I listen.
And then, when I went back from here [to France, in 1915]… I did something deliberately: all the energies of the last center [at the base of the spine] were drawn up here (gesture to the heart).
But I felt centers BELOW the feet.
I felt a center below the feet….5 There was one below the feet, one at the knees, one here (gesture at the base of the spine), and all of it (Mother gestures, drawing the energies upward), like this, drawn up, and it came here (gesture to the heart).
What I am conscious of is the Consciousness there (gesture above); that’s something unchanging. This (gesture to the forehead): blank. If it starts stirring, its very uncomfortable, but generally it doesn’t stir at all—one day it stirred for a few minutes, and it was extremely unpleasant. It’s like this (gesture like a motionless bar), blank: a blank feeling, like blank paper…. This (gesture from the throat to the mouth) is the connection with people, and that’s EXTREMELY unpleasant, really extremely unpleasant (I can’t say), and materially it results in the deterioration of teeth and… Very unpleasant. Here (gesture to the heart)… I told you, all energies, from below the feet (Mother gestures as if pulling it all upward), all that was brought up to here. Here (gesture to the heart), it’s like a sun, always. It’s like a radiant sun: that’s where I work; that’s where I work from…. But with the centers there (gesture to the base of the spine), all the energies have been as if brought up to the heart.
And that’s so natural…. This and this (gesture to the heart and above the head), it’s so natural that I don’t even observe it anymore: it’s my way of being.
But the consciousness isn’t centered in the body, and the body is felt… almost like a transmitting pipe!
Grace-Light, that’s what is working, you know: the work being done through this [Mothers body] is exactly like that, it’s exactly like a Grace-Light. I liked that a lot. It’s exactly that.
You see, it’s a light with several degrees, and in the most material it’s slightly… it must be the supramental force, because it’s slightly golden, slightly pinkish (you know that light), but very, very pale. One of them (gesture pointing to another, higher layer) is white like milk, opaque—it’s very strong. And there’s another (gesture very high) which is white like… it’s transparent light. With that one, it’s strange: one drop of it on the hostile forces, and they’re dissolved. They melt like this (gesture before one’s very eyes). I said all that to Sri Aurobindo, he completely confirmed it. That’s essentially the Grace in its… (gesture very high) supreme state. It’s a Light… it has no color, you know, it’s transparent, and that Light (I have experienced that, I mention it because I know it), if you put it on a hostile being… it melts like that. It’s extraordinary…. And then, in its “benevolent” form, as we might call it (that is to say, the Grace helping and assisting and healing), it’s white like milk. And if I want a wholly material action (but this is quite recent—it’s since this new Consciousness came), then in its physical action, on the physical, it’s become slightly colored: it’s luminous, golden with some pink in it, but it’s not pink… (Mother takes a hibiscus next to her). It’s like this.
Like Auroville’s flower. But I DELIBERATELY chose it as Auroville’s flower, for that reason. And my impression is that this is the supra-mental color: when I see beings from the supramental, they have… not quite this color…. It’s not like a flower, it’s like flesh. But it’s like this (Mother points to the flower’s color).
But there is this Consciousness… all of a sudden, when you no longer ARE, when there’s nothing but That, this Consciousness there (gesture around the head), a slightly golden Consciousness, you REALLY get the impression of omnipotence and… And here you know NOTHING! Nothing, nothing at all, you can’t explain anything. All that is… what I call mental imaginings.
Now, when I am asked a question, nothing, nothing responds, and then all of a sudden the answer comes (gesture of descent) in words; but if I am not very attentive, prrt! nothing remains, I can’t even recapture the words…. The consciousness of the answer is there (gesture above), it doesn’t budge, it’s always there, this consciousness, but the materialization of it is very fleeting.