December 1972

Index

02. December 1972 – The Standard of Time changes

Then I’ll give you only ten minutes. Something strange is happening which I don’t understand — and it’s getting stronger and stronger: it took me more than an hour to eat my breakfast, yet when I started I told myself: I must finish this in twenty minutes. And I really thought I had finished in twenty minutes!

Time… I have completely lost the sense of time.

I was convinced I had finished in twenty minutes and it took me more than an hour — to eat nothing!

I take a bite or a sip, and then ten minutes, twenty minutes go by (gesture showing the glass or spoon in midair while Mother goes off)… I don’t know where, I don’t know what.

But what’s extraordinary is the disparity: usually I don’t think about the time, but since it was your day and it was already late, I told myself: I must finish in twenty minutes — and it took me more than an hour!

There’s something there I must understand. Clearly, the standard of time changes. But it’s very impractical.

The same at night: I don’t sleep; at first, as I lie in bed, I have a pain here, a pain there… Then I enter the consciousness where pain disappears, and suddenly I wake up (I am not “asleep,” I am in… a light, a formless light), with the impression I’ve been in bed an hour, while in actuality it was five or six.

I just go into… (Mother closes her eyes) oh, I tell you it can last… I have but to do this (Mother closes her eyes)… I could keep you here for an hour and not know it!

It’s completely, completely new… Something completely new, which I don’t understand.

We’ll see. I would be interested to do it with you and see your sensation. But we must wait a little.

06. December 1972 – The Consciousness must have sunk

The tree that gave me all my “Transformation” flowers [from Satprem’s garden] is broken.

The “Service” tree also: some of its branches have been torn off.

Usually it didn’t come this way…

The consciousness must have sunk a lot… quite a lot.

Some curious things are happening: the consciousness is clearer and vaster than it has ever been — a vast, vast vision… and very precise: I know things happening at a distance (without thinking: they just come).

But my memory is absolutely gone. I don’t know — half an hour later, I’ve already forgotten what I did.

Absolutely forgotten.

The consciousness of the Presence — the Presence everywhere, in everything…

09. December 1972 – A Cyclone within

There WAS a cyclone within.

Obviously, everything is designed so that the only… (I can’t find the word in French) reliance, the only support is in the Divine. But I am not told what the “Divine” is — how do you like that!… Everything else is collapsing, except the… the… the what? The Divine… something — what?…

One feels it. It can’t be described or defined in any way — absolutely not.

10. December 1972 – Life is Torture

For me life is a torture if I am not exclusively turned to the Divine.

That’s the only remedy; otherwise, it’s true, life is a torture. Existing becomes intolerable.

The only remedy is to be like this… (gesture, hands turned upward in contemplative silence)… when time ceases to exist.

20. December 1972 – The Force passing into Mother’s Body

He had accumulated a great deal of supramental force in his body, and as soon as he left he… He was on his bed, you see, and I was standing beside him, and all the supramental force that was in him passed quite concretely from his body into mine — so concretely that I thought it was visible. I could feel the friction of the passage. It was extraordinary — extraordinary! It was an extraordinary experience. It went on for a long, long time like this (gesture of the Force passing into Mother’s body). I was standing beside his bed, and it passed into me.

Almost physical — it was a physical sensation.

It lasted a long time.

There is a difference in the POWER of the action.

He himself — he himself has a greater action, a greater power or action now than when he was in his body. Besides, that’s why he left — because it had to be done that way.

It’s very tangible, you know. His action has become very tangible. Of course, it isn’t something mental at all. It is from another region. But it isn’t neither ethereal nor — is it tangible. I could almost say material.

23. December 1972 – Time sense is topsy-turvy

Time sense is completely topsy-turvy — when I think five minutes have passed, it’s an hour, and when I think an hour has passed, it’s five minutes! It’s completely, completely… And I am puzzled, I am truly puzzled as to what causes it. Another standard of time. And it doesn’t follow my conscious will: I’ll start eating, thinking, “I want to be finished in twenty minutes” — and it takes me an hour! On another occasion, I don’t think of time: I finish in twenty-five minutes. I don’t understand.

From an outward point of view, I am starting to look crazy!

At night (I have long nights, but I don’t sleep), I feel it’s over in one minute!… I go to bed saying to myself: ah, this will last a while — and it’s over in five minutes, it seems to me.

Another time, I want to go fast, and it takes… almost an hour. I don’t understand.

Yes, but they are not “dreams,” you see. I mean… it’s not that kind of thing at all.

Sometimes I am identified with some people, and I thoroughly feel — I don’t feel it’s “another” person: I feel it’s myself. And sometimes it’s people I don’t know. There are all kinds of things.

The consciousness is VERY vast. It isn’t limited to one person or even a few persons: it is very vast.

But I am perplexed by what’s happening with clock time… I thought it was not quite nine o’clock, and I was told it was already ten. I have no idea how that happened.

I start my breakfast telling myself: Ah, I’ll eat fast, I am late — it takes me an hour!

But I don’t say anything because people are so stupid they would say I am going crazy. That’s not it… I simply live in another consciousness.

So my one external resource — EXTERNALLY — is to say the mantra: OM Namo Bhagavateh (it’s an external part of myself that says it); but inside, I am like this (Mother opens her hands upward in total stillness). And now if I remain like that, hours may go by, and I won’t know it.

27. December 1972 – Message

We want to show to the world that man can become a true servitor of the Divine.

Who will collaborate in all sincerity?

30. December 1972 – Prayer of the Body

Things have taken an extreme form. There’s a sort of lifting of the whole atmosphere towards an almost… inconceivable splendor, but at the same time, there’s a feeling that one can… die any moment — not “die,” but the body could dissolve. Both things together make up a consciousness in which… (Mother shakes her head) all past experiences seem puerile, childish, unconscious. And this… is stupendous and wonderful.

But the body, the body has a single prayer — always the same:

Make me worthy of knowing You

Make me worthy of serving You

Make me worthy of being You

I can barely eat anymore, and I am not hungry. I feel a growing strength in me… but new in quality… in silence and contemplation.

Nothing is impossible (Mother opens her hands upward).

So if you don’t have any questions to ask… If you want silence… conscious silence…?