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6. May 1960 (The
Secret in his Essays of the Gita) |
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At times I sense there’s an extraordinary
secret to discover, just there at my finger tips; I feel that I am going to
catch the Thing, to know … Sometimes, for a second, I see the Secret; there is
an opening, and again it closes. Then once again it is unveiled for a second
and I come to know a little more. Yesterday the Secret was there completely
clear, wide open. But it’s not something that can be explained: words
are silly, it must be experienced. Sri Aurobindo speaks of this Secret almost
everywhere, especially in his Essays on the Gita. He tells us that in the
Gita itself one gets glimpses of this thing which is beyond the Impersonal,
beyond even the Personal behind the Impersonal, beyond the Transcendent. Well, I saw this Secret—I saw that the Supreme
only becomes perfect in terrestrial matter, on earth. ‘Becomes’ is just a way of speaking, of
course, for everything already is, and the Supreme is what He is. But we live
in time, in a successive unfoldment, and it would be absurd to say that at
present Matter is the expression of a perfect Divine. I saw this Secret (which is getting more and more
perceptible as the Supramental becomes clear), I saw it in the everyday,
outer life, precisely in this very physical life which all spirituality
rejects … a kind of accuracy or exactitude right down to the atom. I am not saying that the ‘Divine’
becomes perfect in Matter—the Divine is already there—but that
THE SUPREME becomes perfect in Matter. |
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16. May 1960 (To be humble...) |
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If there is one fundamental necessity, it is
humility. To be humble. Not humble as it is normally understood, such as
merely saying, ‘I am so small, I’m nothing at
all’—no, something else … Because the pitfalls are
innumerable, and the further you progress in yoga, the more subtle they
become, and the more the ego masks itself behind marvelous and saintly
appearances. So when somebody says, ‘I no longer want to rely on
anything but Him. I want to close my eyes and rest in Him alone,’ this
comfortable ‘Him,’ which is exactly what you want him to be, is
the ego—or a formidable Asura, or a Titan (depending on each
one’s capacity). They’re all over the earth, the earth is their
domain. So the first thing to do is to pocket your ego—not preserve it,
but get rid of it as soon as possible! You can be sure that the God you’ve created is
a God of the ego whenever something within you insists, ‘This is what I
feel, this is what I think, this is what I see; it’s my way, my very
own—it’s my way of being, my way of understanding, my
relationship with the Divine, etc.’ And then they say, ‘I want to close my eyes
and see nothing but Him I want nothing more of the outer world.’ And
they forget there’s Love! That is the great Secret, that which is behind
the Existent and the Non-Existent, the Personal and the
Impersonal—Love. Not a love between two things, two beings… A
love containing everything. In the early part of the century, I wrote Prayers
and Meditations, and I too spoke of ‘Him’; but I wrote that with
all my aspiration, all my sincerity (at least with all the sincerity of the
conscious parts of my being) and I locked it up in a drawer so that no one
would see it. It was Sri Aurobindo who later asked me to publish it, for it
could be useful… If I knew then, fifty years ago, what I know now, I
would have been crushed!… All this ‘shame,’ all this
‘unworthiness’… After all, it’s good to know gradually, good
to have some illusions—not for the sake of illusions but as a necessary
step along the way. Everything comes at the right moment. And what is wonderful is that at each moment the
Grace, the Joy, the Light, the Love never cease pouring down in the very
midst of all this—despite the ego, despite the shame, despite the
unworthiness. To be humble… |
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4. Juni 1960 (Tamas und Schlaf) |
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Das Tamas verursacht den schlechten
Schlaf. Es gibt zwei Arten von schlechtem Schlaf, der euch beschwert, euch
verstumpft, als verliere man alle Ergebnisse der Anstrengung des vergangenen
Tages, und der Schlaf, der aus auslaugt, als hätte man die ganze Zeit in
einer Schlacht verbracht. |
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Oktober 1960 (Religionen) |
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Dann ist da auch diese alte Idee der Religionen chaldäischen und
christlichen Ursprungs, dieses Gottes, vor dem wir etwas Unwürdiges sind, das
keine wahre Verbindung erlangen kann – eine Kluft zwischen uns und ihm.
Das ist schrecklich und muss unbedingt aufhören. Denn mit dieser Idee kann sich die Erde und die Menschheit
niemals verändern. Deshalb sagte ich auch immer wieder, dass dieser Gedanke
das Werk des Asuras war; damit beherrschen sie die Erde. |
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5. November 1960 (Karma) |
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Oft versucht man, die
Vergangenheit zu vergessen, aber das ist vergeblich. Erst wenn sie euch die
ganze Lehre gebracht hat, die sie euch im Leben bringen sollte, dann ist ihr
Nutzen vergangen, sie verschwindet. Im Grunde bin ich überzeugt, dass das Karma nur aus Dingen
besteht, die man mit sich schleppt und derer man sich nicht auf die wahre
Weise bediente... Hat man vollkommen und deutlich die Lehre gelernt, die
dieses Ereignis oder jener Umstand einem bringen wollte, ist es vorbei, sein
Nutzen ist vergangen und es löst sich auf. |
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8. November 1960 (Neigung) |
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Im Grunde ist es, ja, die Liebe zum
Romanhaften – man liebt das Romanhafte, man wünscht es sich, man
braucht es! Sonst langweilt man sich, und das ist sehr öde! |
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12. November 1960 (Sri Aurobindo) |
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Sri Aurobindo sagte: Wir befinden uns nicht mehr in der
Zeit des Christus, wo man am Kreuz sterben muss, um einen Sieg zu erringen. Wir müssen uns weiten, uns entspannen, plastisch werden. |
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15. November 1960 (Das Selbst) |
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Man fragt, wie es möglich ist, in so vollkommener
Blindheit gelebt zu haben, das je in seinem Leben sich selbst genannt
zu haben. |